Words To You.

I don't want to waste my life regretting what I have not said.

I don't want to regret saying what I have not said.

So I sit back.

Pondering the objections and projections of an unlikely love.

A question.

An exclamation.

Restaurant Lingo

Here's a List of a Few Things We Say in the Kitchen At Work That I Find to Be Humorous

"Can I get my benny done up, please?" -Hollandaise & Hashbrowns on an Eggs Bennedict

"One for the money, two for the show." -Onions/Tomatoes/etc on the side

"Sell the chit!" - Give me the bill.

I'm looking for you.

Across the lake, to the mountains and in the lavender-lit grey-time sky.

Beneath the benches of solitude.

In the trees.
In the trees.
In the trees.

Come and find me.

Irked.

Today I am irked.
Irked about what you ask?

How the people I call friends, are bearing burdens that are not there's to bear. I don't even bear this stuff; I don't see the point in making it such a big deal. But no, suddenly it's okay to make me feel super terrible about the stuff I don't participate in.
It's really not that big of a deal. I've never made it a big deal, either. You're the one doing that.
If you're reading this, chances are, I'm not talking about you...so don't take this too personally. :)


Anyways. I'm quite tired of this week and it's only Monday.
Things will get better, I know they will.
:) For I am listening to some good ole gospel-feel-good music.

Fred Hammond. :)
Kirk Franklin. :)
And all that jazzzzz.


And I have started attending Young Adults. :) Definitely will be the highlight of my week: Tuesday. :)

Well. Here's to hoping for a better week. :)

Jazzy. :)

p.s. This is great. 

Yesterday's History, Tomorrow's a Mystery, Today's an Adventure.

Yesterday's History, Tomorrow's a Mystery, Today's a (Gift) Adventure.

In essence, today went as follows:

-Woke up. 

-Too early.

-Barely texted a yoda quote to Porthos, who seems to manage just find, texting at 7:15 in the morning.

-Rode bike to school (no problemos). 

-Survived my first official 6 hour school day of my last year in highschool. 

-Was entertained during my peer tutoring block (which turned out to be a spare at the time), by Essentially -B who read the most entertaining information from a chemistry textbook. 

-Rode my bike easily enough back home.

-Blah Blah Blah

-Decided to ride my bike to Staples with the idea in mind that I would get two notebooks and some coloured pens. Having put on my helmet, I rode my bike around the block and nearly keeled over. My cell phone rang and I thought I was legit enough to pick it up at the same time I was riding. I've done it before, but a word from the wise: it apparently doesn't work when your cell phone slips out of your hand. It fell through those wire things on the wheel, and I braked super hard, and the phone slipped through the wire things, completely unharmed. It was a close call, I must say, but nothing was damaged, nor was I hurt.
Haha....like 5 boys walking home saw me though. They laughed. Always so encouraging. :p :)
-Got to Staples. Bought the two notebooks.
-Left Staples; started riding home.
-A car didn't see me and the guy almost hit me...but he was slow enough to stop safely.
-Arrived at my final destination (home) all in one piece.

Summary: Today was quite the adventure.

Ra-Ra-Rasputin!

Skip to 1:38, then read the rest of this blogpost. :)

Oh my word. I'm pretty sure anyone who is into the oldies, knows what song that title is a part of.
It's soooo annoying.
It's been stuck in my head all day.
And now it will be stuck in yours. :)

I blame it on HP Sauce. Today we were reviewing the Russian Revolution unit, and she had asked, "Who's Rasputin again?"
Then I said, "Ra-Ra-Rasputin da da daaa dada da da daaaaa."

Mr. Wans gave me this terribly serious face and said, "Don't ever sing that song in my class again! ........I hate ABBA!"

=O

hahah, O-Mann and I were like, "But Wans, I don't think that song is by Abba."
Wans, "Who cares, I don't wanna be frolicking through the halls with that song stuck in my head!"

These are what sweet history things are made up of. :)
It was a great day. :)
For the remainder of our class, HP Sauce and I spent it singing Ra-Ra-Rasputin (ok...only I did) , and laughing our heads off at O-Mann's hilarious comments throughout the class.

O-Mann, I haven't laughed so hard in such a long time. :) You made my day!

-Jazzypants 

One Thing About Adolescence.

As teens, we grow.

Mentally.
Physically.
And Spiritually.

I'm at that point where....I'm looking back, reflecting, and correcting.
I'm dreaming....hoping....aspiring to be like my loved ones.

Over the past year, life's handed me tears, smiles, and frowns....and I've learned how to handle these things. In other cases, I'm still emotionally flustered, and fine myself laying in bed thinking about certain hardships past midnight.

At this very moment though, this song has been incredibly evoking.

I need to wake up.
I want to wake up.
It's just very difficult....to wake up out of hibernation.

More difficult than I thought.

But. "I need to be revived. Bring me back to life."

I'm gonna try harder.
I really am.

Hold me to it folks.

God......Hold me to it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b5gFdx8o76Y

Questions.

I've come upon yet another questioning stanza in my rhyme of life.

Only....it's not whether or whether not I've made the right choices.

No...
Nothing like that.

More like.....
Why this?
Why that?

I'm trusting God.
Knowing all will work out.

Knowing...Praying...and Hoping....that I can soon dig deeper, rather than just scratch the surface.

Riding the Tides

Virtually.....Life is like a glass bottle. We....are like glass bottles.

We float in the tides waiting to reach dry land.
We ride the waves...
We sink....we float....we crash....

And sometimes we break.

Say someone finds our broken pieces, though. Say someone (of a greater being) melts our pieces with his own creation....with his own fire.
Say.....let's say....he makes us new again.

Say....he puts back out in the water again....but this time....He controls the water.....He controls the tides.....
and we float with the strengths and abilities....the density and being that which he has given us.


Life is like a glass bottle.
I am a glass bottle.

And...right now...
I feel like floating against the greater tides.....so....I'm rising from where I've sunk....and I'm going to ride them waves.
I think the only way I'll be able to float up from the depths I'm in....the only way I can get out of this current that's dragging me on to no purpose....is to call on my Maker.



Bring 'em on, baby. Bring 'em on.

Blogger's Challenge Day 18

"I can always live by my pen." ~Jane Austen

Oh...but if I could live by my pen...to write...to paint...and sing what I hear. To pull all my five senses...into words...rhythms...and acryllics.
That is an everlasting dream...
Though, for today's blogger's challenge, I believe I am not using the word "dream" in the right context.

No...
So...In the right context:
I plan to travel the world. To live all over the world doing whatever need be. I love exploring the Earth...
I keep changing what I want to be when I grow up....it used to be a midwife...then I intensely thought about social working...and now...it is journalism. Why? Because it implements everything I love: travel, writing, photography, communication--it seems perfect!
I've just got to do a little digging.
In any case...as you can see, my job will make travelling possible.
Other plans include volunteering more...I know that these major universities I want to go to all look to see how much you volunteer. Important fact to note: it doesn't matter how long you volunteer in one particular position, but the variance. So...I want to start getting involved, do YWAM after I grad, commence at least one big event during my grad year.

As for dreams...Well...I'd love to live in a castle. One of my favourite epochs was when a  knight battled great immense forces to climb the stone walls of his true love's castle. Maybe my dream is just to live in a real fairytale.
Another dream I have...is to obtain world peace...absolute equality. No I am not a fan of Lenin, nor am I a Communist. I have learned that it is a completely terrible process that takes place in order for this ideology to fold out. But that is why I dream. I dream that we will all be enlightened by the truth.

Realistically speaking...my goals are to work out more, master the piano, {{travel}}, get a job, publish a book, make a CD of all my songs, buy a banjo, learn how to play it.....the list goes on + my list of Vain Endeavourments.

I guess I'll update you in thirty years...tell you how it's goin. :)

day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind your blog name
day 3- a picture of you as a child
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere you've been
day 6- favourite super hero and why

day 7- a picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why

day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days 

day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

day 11- write a bucket list of things you want to do before you die

day 12- write a poem to someone you love

day 13- your 5 favourite books and why

day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play

day 16- a picture of yourself

day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

day 19- write about a sweet memory from your past
day 20- write a letter to someone
day 21-a picture of something that makes you happy
day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave a lot
day 24- post your favourite quote or verse of scripture and why
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- list 10 things that you are thankful for
day 27- my day job verses my passion
day 28- cruise a thesaurus and pick out 10 words you like the sound of
day 29 - favourite tv shows and why you like them
day 30 - movies you can watch again and again.

Blogger's Challenge Day 08

Short Term Goals for This Month.


1. To fill out applications and get another job. I babysit and deliver papers...but am in need of another income. :)
2. To work out everyday. 30 days straight is supposed to kick into a habit. We'll see what happens. :)
3. If I want to get through my New Years Resolutions, I will have to finish that French song I started writing.
4. Post a video of me singing.
5. Not straighten my hair as much. I love Teyana Taylor's hair (see picture below), and though I know my hair will never look like this....I want to get it as close to this as possible. :) I.E. No more straightening of the hair.

day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind your blog name
day 3- a picture of you as a child
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere you've been
day 6- favourite super hero and why

day 7- a picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why

day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days
day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
day 11- write a bucket list of things you want to do before you die
day 12- write a poem to someone you love
day 13- your 5 favorite books and why
day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
day 16- a picture of yourself
day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
day 19- write about a sweet memory from your past
day 20- write a letter to someone
day 21-a picture of something that makes you happy
day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave a lot
day 24- post your favorite quote or verse of scripture and why
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- list 10 things that you are thankful for
day 27- my day job verses my passion
day 28- cruise a thesaurus and pick out 10 words you like the sound of
day 29 - favorite tv shows and why you like them
day 30 - movies you can watch again and again.

ALSO.

I don't like it when people misinterpret what I say. If you're going to repeat it to other people, get your facts straight.

I Wish

I had time to do everything I want to do in life.
But unfortunately 7 days of the week are just not enough.

Thank you IB....
for reeking havoc in my life.

I went to the library yesterday....and borrowed 4 books on the Russian Revolution. For better understanding on this October/November 1917 coup thinger.

It kind of helped.
But I still don't understand the Kerensky Affair as much as I'd like to.
So...if there is a genius online, please do explain.

I also got this random book at the library...under Young Adult Fiction....but at this time I forget what it's called.
I got Wuthering Heights too.
But I have to finish Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince first :)

CD Wise:
Def Leppard = ewwish. reminds me of aerosmith.
Kings of Leon = I don't like. :P
Parachute = :)
All Four One = best band from the 90s ever.

"So let this fire consume my life...Let Your love take me deeper, pull me closer to where You are, 'cause all I want is more of You." ~Hillsong United :)