Time To Blog About My Feelings.

Haven't done this in a while, but it is time to vent.

I just had an emotional breakdown: partly because my computer crashed while I was studying and taking notes; partly because I'm freaking out about my history exams. I must write 3 papers: the last two of which include 5 essays. The information I must memorize is insane: from pre-WW1 to the process of detente in the Cold War... I have to know these events inside out and be able to analyze them. It's crazy, but we've been studying these things since September 2010. I'm freaking out, though.

Anyways, the computer crashed, and I burst out into tears. I'm still red-eyed and stressed, but I need not be. This is the moment where most of my IB buddies would come in with a pep talk and yell at me (in a personal-trainer-sort-of-good-way), telling me that I've been studying this stuff for two years. I've been writing for so long. On the inside I really know what to do, and when the time comes, everything will come flying back and I'll nail this. In fact, they'd probably tell me that I could nail it right now, if I put my mind to it. Don't let obstacles get in the way, just sprint.

Wow. Kind of just gave myself a pep-talk and I feel a little better, actually.

In any case, after 5-10minutes of balling and raging I washed my face with freezing cold water, turned the computer back on, and decided to pull everything back up, and keep this picture on the side, as well as on my desktop, for motivation.

It's working. 

I'm going back to work now. I've pulled out a bunch of history text books and hopefully my computer stays alive enough for me to get a good review in. 

Not going to stress, because that will get me nowhere. 

Sprinting. 

Reading About So Many Wars, May In Fact Start A War in My Head. So Much Memorizing To Do.

Ode to studying like a beeeast. 

As if textbooks weren't enough, I went to the library and found myself The Atlantic and Its Enemies: A History of the Cold War by Norman Stone, as well as The 1900s: Headlines in History.

Quite helpful, but they do little for entertainment. 

Must. Finish. History. Homework.

Yeeeah uh HUH You Know What It Is //Black&Yellow\\Black&Yellow//Black&Yellow\\

:) Il a NEIGE.
This makes me happy :)
What doesn't make me happy: I didn't have anyone to go sledding with today!
And, secondly, the snow isn't the greatest...to make snowmen and such.
aaah well.
"Jammin' with my boombox loud like POW" Got some ghetto gangsta tunes. :) Jazzy approved of course ;) As for the title of this blogpost, I only like the chorus :) haha C'mon. You've gotta admit. It's pretty flyyyy.

Now onto History Homework. Manchuria, wars, the usual. Stoked?
Noooot.

I'm working on signing up for rowing or whatevs....but I have a bunch of things to figure out before hand. Like if I'm busy or not (I'm involved in a lot this year...so...we'll see how it goes).

I should've made one of my New Years Resolutions to be: "Jazzy, you cannot eat anything with sugar in it." It seems that over the holidays, I have consumed a crazy amount of chocolate. Bad Jazzy, Bad.

Ima go back to chillin with my tunes. Holla! (Wish me luch with this project.)

Ima Make This Quick

because I'm supposed to be working on my History project right now...but I felt like writing.

This month I'm planning on workin out crazy (mainly cause I don't have P.E. this year) to get back into shape for the sake of feeling energized, and to just get into the habit of exercising on my own all the time, plus I'd like to be in a well state by the time we go to Disneyland!! :) For privacy's sake, I won't speak of when I'm going, but it is this month! I'm so stoked!!! :) Road trip with the fam and my aunt and uncle down to L.A. then to venture throughout the cities of magic! :) I'm pretty stoked. :D

Ughhh.....I'd like to start painting again, seeing as though because of IB workload's I haven't been doing so......I'll probably get a brainwave when I'm down in Cali....which should also help out with my song-writing. **crossed fingers**

Memo to Self: I NEED TO PRACTICE PIANO!
grr.

Second Memo to Reader: Brainy B thinks I look like a toad with my grey beanie. Thank you very much B. :p

Third Memo: I'm trying to finish the Harry Potter series before November 19th....but I'm only 1/3rd of the way through book 4! Ahhhh SO hard. At least it's a comfort to know that The Deathly Hallows is being split in half...so when all else fails I'll for sure be able to watch the premier Summer 2011 of Part II. :p :) haha

Fourth Memo: For those of you who know how I write my date: "November __th 2010" <-- well with the two zeroes I always make a face. This month it shall have a moustache :D ForTheWin. :) lml ^.^ lml

Quoting Tay-of-Sunlight:


"I Owe, I Owe, Off to work I go!" [Tay-of-Sunlight] 


Hahahahahahha. :D Love it. :) 


JAZZYMCJAZZERPANTS


*memo to me for later: check out KJ52 "Dear Slim"*

:) Oh Joy.

Lazy Sunday afternoon, and I've just realized that I didn't finish my French homework. :P Oh well--easy enough.

I leave this quote from my cousin who's not really my cousin but in Sri Lankan culture you're practically related to everyone: C.P.
:)

"Kindness doesn't necessitate a judgment of right or wrong, ally or enemy, deserving or undeserving. It is simply the natural disposition of the wise." [C.P.]

Blah Blah Blahhhhhhh.

I do realize I didn't write yesterday, but quite frankly I had no time. :)
Right now, I'm not even supposed to be writing. I should be reading Lord of the Flies, or working on that lame-o WWI work package thingamabobber. :P
But I am not. I am writing. Here. Lamely.

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I have not but much else to say. I leave you with a quote submitted by my good friend, Athos. :)

"Well done is better than well said." -Benjamin Franklin 

Mmmmm....It Smells Like Fall

I'm so excited! This weather means scarves, layers, jackets, and boots. =) Cold weather--Bring. It. On.

How was everyone's Thanksgiving? I'd appreciate a reply. You ARE allowed to comment.....and.....I know who reads this...so maybe I'll hunt you down at school bombarding you with attacking questions on why you have not dared to type in the box that allows you to comment upon this fascinating best amazing spectacular jumble of words.


...


There was a tone of sarcasm pronounced in that fragment of abundant joy.

Mine was fairly amazing. :) Pumpkin pieeeee........ yum.

Definitely thankful for peace......Reading All Quiet on the Western Front was, like I said before, eye-opening..... before this, I guess I'd never really fully understood what these soldiers go through....the horrors and mind-blowing aspects of it all are crazy. If you want to read a good book, read that.

Speaking of books, I've just finished Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets. Good stuff =) Onto the Prisoner of Azkaban as soon as the book gets in.... :P Hopefully not long. :)

Memo#1: Je parle Francais tres mal. :P
Memo#2: J'espere je suis fais bien dans la class de Francais. :P

This has been another epic boring blog with yours truly. I'll try and add in some more action when I become a superhero. :P


Sorry.


Dry Humour.

Adios.
Jazzafest ;)

"it seems impossible, it's not impossible." ~~Manafest "Impossible" :P
^I know. Profound.

Life Would Be Amazing If...

I had all the time in the world.
Today looks very familiar; i.e. tons of homework.

English: Chpt. 4 of All Quiet on the Western Front....+ Chpt. Questions and 3 Quotes.
History: 10 (might as well finish all 20 though because I'll eventually have to do them) Questions on an article written in 1917 with really big words. :P
Biology: REVIEWWWWWWW. :P hint. EWWWWWWW.
French: research some stuff on people who've used steroids. provide a good argument based on why it's OKAY TO USE STEROIDS. =O

Of course the chick who doesn't swear, hates drugs, doesn't tolerate drugs, gets stuck with the argument on why athletes SHOULD use steroids.
And how very repellent that it should be written in French.

In Def Leppard's voice we say:
For the GAGNE.

NOOOOT.

Hmm.
I sang for my piano teacher. Maaaaan. I'm glad that's over. I've pretty much presented quite a timid character so far....mainly cause I'm just overwhelmingly quiet; so he was surprised when I started singing......of course YOU (reader) do not know what I'm talking about because you've probably never heard me sing XD
Anyways, I'm just stoked because he's gonna teach me some new things I can do with the piano, in my chorus. =)


Here is where my boring blogpost ends because I must go:
z.) Run.
y.) Do my homework.
x.) Take the dog for a walk.
w.) Do my homework.
v.) Practice Piano.
u.) Eat. :P
t.) Read Harry Potter.....if my homework is finished.
s.) Pick out neon clothes to wear to school tomorrow. You know...this Spirit Week is unusual. I assumed that nobody would dress up as a nerd, because like...no one ever participates in these school things but freshmen...which is why I didn't wear my super awesome sport-nerd outfit (short bright yellow shorts, baggy T tucked in, 80s green headband, wool socks, bright red runners, and big glasses). Instead I show up, and a ton of people dressed up. :P
Typical that this should happen to yours truly.
So no matter what, I will be decked out in NEON tomorrow. ;)

Memo: I swear one of the hazelnuts from our tree....the ones that are drying in the corner of the room....well....one of them just jumped. No joke.... :P

Memo#2: After writing this post I went for a run! =) FINALLY getting back into shape, and it feels great =)

I need some sleep.
Surviving off 6 hours every night is a nightmare.

Adios Amigos. This is what my homework looks like:

JAZARITA.