"Preventive Maintenance" - LET IT GO by T.D. Jakes

"Often people so honor or respect us that they smother discontentment to appear congenial. This kind of deception is often well meaning but can really rob us of a real fighting chance at a better atmosphere at home or at work. Just because a person shows up at work and completes basic assignments doesn't ensure that they are really fulfilled in the workplace. I have seen time and time again frustration imitate cancer and silently engulf people who avoid confrontation to the point of becoming martyrs simply because they lack the courage or the skills to be forthcoming about little areas of discontentment. Then, before you ever saw it coming, you have lost an excellent team member to the silent progression of a discontentment that could have been avoided by communicating about a few small things long before they became major issues."

A paragraph out of "Let It Go" by T.D. Jakes; a book I am currently reading, can't get enough of, and can't seem to stop recommending. It is so good. Go to the book store or library. Check it out, you will not regret it.


This book is helping so much.

I Love Autumn

This season comes with so many feelings. It is both warm and cold. The leaves are bright and happy... though the sky is grey.

The other night a good friend invited me out to a worship night at a nearby college. It was wonderful. I looked out the window at one point and realized that though it was cold out at the time, just a few hours ago it had been a warm afternoon. Things are changing drastically. We haven't had weather this bizarre since 1945, says the local newspaper.

But as I looked into the night sky brazed by the fog... I thought about God.
God's picture must be like the sky. Sometimes I like to think of his eyes being the universe in it's entity.
The sky is always changing, and in yet some sense it is consistent. It is always there. It isn't always what we want it to be, but it's what we need it to be.

We haven't had rain in weeks.

We don't necessarily like the rain.

Nonetheless we need it immensely. The grass is brittle and the air is quite dry.

I was figuring during worship that God is quite a mystery in a sense, because we have not physically seen Him. I trust He is there. That is what faith is for. I know He is because of the feelings and happenings that have occurred over the past few months especially where I have felt His presence.

Faith is difficult to explain unless you have experienced it...so I shall not ramble too much on that note. Just this: the other day I was talking about someone dear to my heart... and I said something that my heart must have known for the past two years for sure, but has just now put words to. "Faith is an experience of enlightenment that no human can touch. It is in a place so deep within our souls that only the Enlightener can handle."

Back to what I was saying.

I love autumn. Specifically Autumn 2012. I have seen sunshine and felt cold and witnessed the changing of colours upon the beautiful trees. I do not despise the falling of leaves. It kind of reminds me of the natural state of things. Trees without leaves. Nothing to disguise their backbone or structure.

I love autumn because it's all the best wrapped into one phase. God's beauty is everywhere. Is unique persona. His mystery. It's in the clouded skies and the blank blue paint of a brisk morning.

It is an experience I wish to savour.

It is just beauty.

Finding Inner Peace.

Life after high school is so different. I did not imagine such dramatic things would start happening. 

It's not all bad.

But there comes a time when we all feel slightly lonely in life. Hate to be a downer, but that's what's up.

It has been quite an eye opener-- realizing who true friends are, why faith is so important, and how it really effects the grand spectrum of life. 

I was trying to fall asleep at 2am last night, when I pulled up a youtube link on my iPod. I've had this song listed as one of my favourites for quite a while, but the words hit me hard this time. 

Seriously. Breathe in "Abba" and exhale "I belong to you." 

It just felt so beautiful. 

I've always known it. But sometimes saying it aloud really helps. Alone or surrounded, there's always someone's who's got my back. 

Happy Easter

Thankful that this long weekend is just a reminder of what Jesus did for us.

That he would die for us, so that we could be forgiven is astounding. That he would die for me... almost seems crazy, but I am so greatful. I would not be where I am today, had he not become my best friend.

Trusting always, and trying to put God first in everything I do is a challenge, but Jesus definitely took the pressure of many hindrances away.

I don't fear anymore, because I know that the love that held onto the cross and overcame the grave, is strong enough to hold me up and keep me safe. This unconditional love is a beautiful thing.

Happy Easter, everyone.

Enjoy your chocolate. :)

Let the Earth Open Up. Can I Swim in Your Beauty?

One day I will sketch the world, paint a nebula, mould the ocean out of teal clay, and post all these beautiful things on my blog.
God made some pretty amazing things. 
And, everything continues to grow.
Let it be amazing. Let it grow.
This continual inspiration in invigorating. 

I Used To Fear So Much.

I was swallowing the sea, before you came and rescued me. I was drifting far away, into the abyss. The sky was all but blue. Seulement gris.

I was making castles in the mud, and you offered me a flag. 

Now I'm not alone.

Now I'm unafraid.

I used to be wrapped in the pleasures of fear. It was scary... metaphoric and realistic, yet somehow surreal.

But you know what...? I survived.

I accepted a gracious hand. 

I took steadfast strength in the meaning of faith.

I can dance in thunderstorms.

I LAUGH AT THE FACE OF FEAR.

DEAR FEAR,

YOU MAKE ME ANGRY.

AND YET, HERE I AM.

LAUGHING AT THE FACT THAT YOU ARE HERE, TRYING TO GRASP MY HAND AGAIN.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH.

~JazzyMcJazzerpants

p.s. Guess what ! It's not going to happen again.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

We are often greeted with our past, and whether we choose to overcome it or not ultimately decides our fate. Reader, I am sure you know of this searing pain. The sight of seeing something appear back in one's life, can be extremely writhing. 

But when we rise to the occasion, and pull out our swords... when we believe Someone greater lives within our hearts, that "thing" that almost defeated us, can be severed. 

Point is: Nous sommes forte. 

I used to fear the oppressive fog that once closed in on me. 

Fear has had a way of tightening my skin and blinding my eyes. 

It was like acid to the face and heart. 

I didn't trust anyone.

But I do not forget about that Love that has rescued me, once before; the love that had calmed such a raging thunderstorm. 

I'm entangled with this love. He will never let go of me, even if the rest of the world does. 

I'm not afraid, because His love is all I need. He is my shield, and that's a promise no monster can eat away. 

Yes. Jesus > Hypocrisy of Religion

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY

Blogger's Challenge Day 24

"Today You are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You." ~Dr. Seuss

Man. I absolutely love this!
It gives me confidence. Kind of like "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." Jeremiah 1:5
These kinds of quotes and verses, make me believe in myself. Like who I am today, what I believe...it's all just meant to be. 
I'm the kid the preppies hate for no apparent reason....other than maybe it's because I'm always happy. 


Jesus loves me, and has created me to be this person with this soul in this body for a specific reason...and I finally know the truth in the verse above. I'm happy. I know part of who I am....on my way to self-actualization....and....I guess being able to comprehend such a fragment...enthuses me.

day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind your blog name
day 3- a picture of you as a child
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere you've been
day 6- favourite super hero and why

day 7- a picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why

day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days 

day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad

day 11- write a bucket list of things you want to do before you die

day 12- write a poem to someone you love

day 13- your 5 favourite books and why

day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play

day 16- a picture of yourself

day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

day 19- write about a sweet memory from your past

day 20- write a letter to someone

day 21-a picture of something that makes you happy

day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave a lot
day 24- post your favourite quote or verse of scripture and why
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- list 10 things that you are thankful for
day 27- my day job verses my passion
day 28- cruise a thesaurus and pick out 10 words you like the sound of
day 29 - favourite tv shows and why you like them
day 30 - movies you can watch again and again.

This is How It Should Be.

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http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/3s2KGD/joshtandy.com/2011/02/04/this-is-what-it-looks-like/

-Jazzy-

Blogger's Challenge Day 01.

15 Facts 

I love Britain. Never have I been to this place...but I am in love with British accents, ancient British buildings, British comedy, and British music.

I rock out to several different genres of music {I can't just choose one} ~~indie (rock/pop/techno/folk), normal rock, britpop, alternative, hip hop, classical, piano, jazz....INDIE!~~

I love to eat and cook exotic foods.

I am Sri Lankan.

I love to write, and have recently begun to do so in French. 

I paint abstract.

I write metaphorical songs.

I absolutely love astronomy. The stars...the universe...they fascinate me. 

I read a lot. Pretty much any genre.

I hate scary movies. My idea of scary: Deja Vu, Inception, Shutter Island...etc. Things that are a battle of the mind kind of creep me out. I'm getting over it though. 

I love to dance, though I've never taken lessons.

I am absolutely obsessed with Star Wars. Yoda is my hero. 

I play the piano, recorder, know a little saxaphone, a little guitar, and have experimented with a harmonica and want to learn the banjo because weird instruments are the coolest most unique things ever. Anything that's "different" and wouldn't be used by artists in the Billboard Top 100 are things I am completely interested in. 

I wear turquoise eye shadow, and don't care what the prepsters think. 

I have no idea what I'm going to be when I grow up, but I trust the God who breathed air into my lungs. I owe it all to Him...for He knows the plans He has for me.....plans to prosper...and not to harm. Plans to give me hope and a future. {{Jeremiah 29:11}}

day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind your blog name
day 3- a picture of you as a child
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere you've been
day 6- favorite super hero and why
day 7- a picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why
day 9- something you're proud of in the past few days
day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
day 11- write a bucket list of things you want to do before you die
day 12- write a poem to someone you love
day 13- your 5 favorite books and why
day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put your ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
day 16- a picture of yourself
day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
day 19- write about a sweet memory from your past
day 20- write a letter to someone
day 21-a picture of something that makes you happy
day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave a lot
day 24- post your favorite quote or verse of scripture and why
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- list 10 things that you are thankful for
day 27- my day job verses my passion
day 28- cruise a thesaurus and pick out 10 words you like the sound of
day 29 - favorite tv shows and why you like them
day 30 - movies you can watch again and again.

"Identity" by Lecrae Moore

This song with the lyrics and such below is called "Identity" by Lecrae. Some tunage you should check out it's pretty "FOR THE WIN" stuff, but another song I'm into right now is called "Go Hard" (also by Lecrae). http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGJOvYHw_RE It pretty much talks about going hard....for Christ. I'm gonna state from here on out...I'm not afraid to die for my faith...I love my God. I'm rearranging my life....and just sayin....I shouldn't be listening to rap crap that's a bad influence....so I'm reppin for my God....and putting Him above all else. I figured...if I'm listening to junky music that doesn't state who God is in my life and what He's done for me (I'll tell my life story another day) I shouldn't be listening to it at all. It's not a very positive influence in my life. So. Like I said: Rearranging. And I'm quite happy about it. Because God deserves to be displayed over every inch of my life. He deserves His say. He deserves to be the basis of whatever I do.....because without Him...I wouldn't be here today. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-stCmD157j0&feature=related

Hair check, shoes check,
brand new fit looking cool check,
looking in mirror like "ooooh yes!"
cover for an insecure dude check, She wont' feel me and they wont like me if I ain't in them J's or them brand new Nikes,but lets dig deeper inside my pysche
when it's all said and done even I don't like me
He live in the gym and his hair stay faded
late model car so they think he made it
but he's Christian he gave his life
but he still ain't satisfied in the savior Christ
still finds his identity in looks and cars
if he only knew that he ain't have to look so hard
If looked in God though it may seem odd he be so satisfied he could leave it all.

[ Chorus ]
I'm not the shoes I wear, I'm not the clothes I buy
I'm am not the house I live in, I'm not the car I drive
I'm not the job I work, You can't define my worth
By nothing on God's green earth, my identity is found in Christ.

[ D.A. T.R.U.T.H. ]
How do I gauge success,Why do I say I'm blessed,
Huh,Is it the car that I drive or the place that I rest or the way that I dress,
now Is the cause of my pride,
the stage and the set or my face in the press,
now Cause the applause it dies
When the praise is less if my face is depressed,
then/It's cause my value and worth is in the volume of the work I produce in the booth
It's a prize and a curse if defined by the perks when the truth is through
Man I'm goin' feel like I don't want to live no more, no more, no more
Cause they don't like me like they did in 04,04,04
So, I swallow my pride empowered by God,
I'm complete in Him
He's got peace God's priest I'm in In
His presence weak-His strength
Meet His kin We His brethren Read this list 

Me forgiven
He's dismissed guilt and my sin and
I find my worth cause I'm Jesus' friend

[ Chorus ]
I'm not the shoes I wear, I'm not the clothes I buy
I'm am not the house I live in, I'm not the car I drive
I'm not the job I work, You can't define my worth
By nothing on God's green earth, my identity is found in Christ.

[ LeCrae ]
Got her hair done, toes and nails
is that Her? well it's hard to tell
cause she's caked up in so much make up
It's like she's tryna make up for what she ain't
but she's a saint but so confused
cause she's been rejected by all these dudes
that tell her on a scale of 10 she's a two
but that ain't true if she only knew
In Christ she is loved she secure and accepted
She'll never be rejected by God who's elected her
Her beauty is her Godliness
And she ain't gotta try to flaunt it cause it's obvious
( Identity is found in the God we trust
Any other identity will self destruct )

[ Chorus ]
I'm not the shoes I wear, I'm not the clothes I buy
I'm am not the house I live in, I'm not the car I drive
I'm not the job I work, You can't define my worth
By nothing on God's green earth, my identity is found in Christ.

Peace Restored.

Best Inspiration = the love of God.

Finally wrote another song. :) Oh how amazing our King is!

Quotes this week: Hillsong: Why? BECAUSE THEYRE COMING TO ABBY FEBRUARY 23RD! :O lml ^.^ lml

"In the chaos//In confusion I know You're sovereign still."~Hillsong United