What Does Love Feel Like?

Love is the feeling you get when you slide into a moment remembering an old moment.

I found myself looking into an old me, naïve, innocent, & probably a little selfish. It was a warm night and my eyes were glued to a summer sky. The constellations amaze me. I have always considered the sky, both night and day, to be part of God's iris: his eyes. In that moment on that night I found myself asking why certain things have happened. I am sure that I let a tear drop, for I am not oft without tears. And in that moment a love found and a love lost no longer gave me anger or remorse or fear. Staring into the deep night sky gave me peace in a silent prayer, and there I told myself to never forget that moment.

Relapse and I have found myself thinking about that moment of peace today. 

It was of peace... Serenity... And... True love.

That feeling the heavens subsided over me was the feeling of love. And no physical being had to be next to me in order for me to feel that... Peaceful love. 

i believe the more times you say something could be true, the more power you give it to become true.

Feeling Sad and Nostalgic.

Lost love is something I will probably never be able to fathom, though it is what it is.

I suppose we are all caught up in the misconceptions of our own thoughts, ideas, and wishes. We implement our expectations into any possible scenario, until we drive the foreseen fault out of the way. I've articulated this art so well into my daily life. It's not healthy by any means, but I didn't actually realize that I was doing it.

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We build up our own thought-processes so much so, that we expect these expectations to be met by everyone. Idealities. Our own ideal world should be what everyone else is trying to create/add to.

When in fact, this should not be so.

I'm learning to suspend my personal frame of reference.

It's difficult and acquires a disciplined, unbiased, character that is by no means stubborn.

Trust me. This isn't pushing my boundaries. This is poking, probing, and stabbing them outwards, like nails to a chalk board.

So oft, I like to offer my opinion and push for it to be the right one.

Like I said, these may be norms, but they are not at all healthy to a self-actualized lifestyle.

I used to think I had met self-actualization in high school. I had everything planned out, I was rather content, for what it was worth. Looking back maybe I was, but I was missing out on so much of the world at that time. I've journeyed deep into the world since then, and what I've learned is that perhaps self-actualization is impossible to achieve. Ideally, we should not have a personal frame of reference, but an omniscient frame of reference, that allocates clear, perfect, critical thinking at all times. We could reach goals and move mountains if we operated without our opinions gluing us down to the ground. Ultimately, we would know what it means to be completely happy.

I don't know how to end this blogpost; probably, because I don't know how to implement such a frame of reference. That is the journey: to reach self-actualization, we must have no opinions, just a perfect understanding of everything.