None of This Would Have Happened If I Had Just Gone In With Wet Shoes And Bought A Cup of Tea

Today I was sitting on a bench in the mall, minding my own business, people-watching, after work.

Noteworthy indeed was the pile of water I came to notice at my feet.

Apparently my water bottle had been dripping for the entire 10 minutes that I had been sitting there.

It probably looks like I "wet" the bench.... if you catch my drift.

So, not only was my mood dampened (pardon the pun) because I didn't want to go into DAVIDsTEA (my favourite place on earth) after work (because I had stepped in a puddle on the way, ruining my shoes) looking like crap and smelling like bleach (I'm a hostess at a restaurant), but the mood had actually been brought to life, when I opened up my bag and my apron and shoes were found to be soaked through.... in lemon water.

How fun.

I really needed a cup of tea at that moment, but I figured it wasn't worth the embarrassment, being so wet and all.

None of This Would Have Happened If I Had Just Gone In With Wet Shoes And Bought A Cup of Tea {Before Sitting Down on the Bench to Mope About My Wet Shoes}.

Is it too superficial of me to say that I dislike going into my favourite places after work because I want to be able to make an impression, and because I don't want to buy anything without looking good?

Don't answer.

I probably am acting a little too superficial right now.

Looks like I'll be brewing my own tea tonight. Good thing I have a hearty supply of DAVIDsTEA products.

Silence.

I thought I'd worked it out and gotten over you.

But see... I still can't seem to stop thinking about you.

And you probably don't even know I've liked you since forever a three years ago.

Now we barely talk.

And I should probably walk away.

But I don't know how.

I don't know how to shut someone out, who helped me open up my heart in the first place.

I Love Autumn

This season comes with so many feelings. It is both warm and cold. The leaves are bright and happy... though the sky is grey.

The other night a good friend invited me out to a worship night at a nearby college. It was wonderful. I looked out the window at one point and realized that though it was cold out at the time, just a few hours ago it had been a warm afternoon. Things are changing drastically. We haven't had weather this bizarre since 1945, says the local newspaper.

But as I looked into the night sky brazed by the fog... I thought about God.
God's picture must be like the sky. Sometimes I like to think of his eyes being the universe in it's entity.
The sky is always changing, and in yet some sense it is consistent. It is always there. It isn't always what we want it to be, but it's what we need it to be.

We haven't had rain in weeks.

We don't necessarily like the rain.

Nonetheless we need it immensely. The grass is brittle and the air is quite dry.

I was figuring during worship that God is quite a mystery in a sense, because we have not physically seen Him. I trust He is there. That is what faith is for. I know He is because of the feelings and happenings that have occurred over the past few months especially where I have felt His presence.

Faith is difficult to explain unless you have experienced it...so I shall not ramble too much on that note. Just this: the other day I was talking about someone dear to my heart... and I said something that my heart must have known for the past two years for sure, but has just now put words to. "Faith is an experience of enlightenment that no human can touch. It is in a place so deep within our souls that only the Enlightener can handle."

Back to what I was saying.

I love autumn. Specifically Autumn 2012. I have seen sunshine and felt cold and witnessed the changing of colours upon the beautiful trees. I do not despise the falling of leaves. It kind of reminds me of the natural state of things. Trees without leaves. Nothing to disguise their backbone or structure.

I love autumn because it's all the best wrapped into one phase. God's beauty is everywhere. Is unique persona. His mystery. It's in the clouded skies and the blank blue paint of a brisk morning.

It is an experience I wish to savour.

It is just beauty.

It is funny how one can be completely ignorant of a situation and the circumstances that befall it, and yet here I am hearing the sadness your life is now exploring without will or choice, and I am allowing my eyes to water.

Praying that those who hurt you will recognize, correct, and love.

Something generically applicable to many situations, but powerful enough to change it by even a fraction.

Remembrance Day

11/11/11/2010.
Did you take part in the One Minute of Silence? I know it's not the eleventh yet, but I'm pretty sure we've all got the school day off tomorrow, and have had an assembly of honour for these patriots today.

This year, I've had a whole new take on Remembrance Day. In English we've read "All Quiet On The Western Front" and poems by Wilfred Own and Rupert Brooke....In History it's been a very deep focus on WWI....
And all in all....I am very thankful....so incredibly thankful....

These soldiers...young men...left their families and loved ones, in 1914, to fight....
They were ignorant of the horrors of war, to the murder of innocence they'd have to face, to all they'd be losing.
I am soo incredibly thankful for these soldiers who kept walking on, who kept fighting, who stood their ground to give us Freedom, Peace, and Integrity. Thanks to these soldiers...we are able to live, love, and hope.
If I could, I would name each and every one of you millions of soldiers who had to face the treacherous atrocity of war.

Thank you.


Watching more "I Am Second" videos.... This one is from Brian Welch....an ex-rockstar. VERY inspirational. Times a million.
http://www.youtube.com/user/IamSecondVIDEOS#p/a/u/1/EOeruTrdF1Q

"Contentment is given to you in life, because you don't have to look anywhere else. And you're exactly where you ned to be. And your question about life is answered."-Brian "Head" Welch (from KORN)

You need to watch the video. If you don't have the time, skim down to 6:58.....but I strongly encourage you to watch this. Really.

I'm off to piano lessons, then to a local play. :)

Jazzy.