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I had the dream of a time on this photo shoot. Models were lovely, and we had so much fun in the sun !

My springtime sessions have begun.

It feels great to get back into the swing of photography.

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I know that all of this is
just a test.

God testing me to trust Him completely...
because I haven't always done so.

And He needs me to.

He wants me to.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
I feel really lonely.
I don't really understand why people don't want to be friends with me.
There's a lot of people who have just... Walked out of my life.

I don't get it.

I've always been there for them.
Is it wrong for me to feel a little selfish and want them to be there for me?

I dunno.

I guess it's just been a tough go-- getting out of high school.

Having plans change so drastically.

And now... Now I've just learned to go with the flow.

But I miss friends.
I miss talking and having people understand.

I miss the happy life.

I miss friendship.

Restaurant Lingo

Here's a List of a Few Things We Say in the Kitchen At Work That I Find to Be Humorous

"Can I get my benny done up, please?" -Hollandaise & Hashbrowns on an Eggs Bennedict

"One for the money, two for the show." -Onions/Tomatoes/etc on the side

"Sell the chit!" - Give me the bill.

It's the biggest test yet.

Fighting to remain optimistic.
Fighting to trust.
Fighting to hold onto love through every trial, every tribulation, & every fear.

Love.

Love will conquer all.

Love has conquered all.

"No matter how hard I try I can't seem to get you out of my mind.

I tried not thinking about you. Then who do I see but you.

I tried not thinking about you. Then who do I dream about but you."

None of This Would Have Happened If I Had Just Gone In With Wet Shoes And Bought A Cup of Tea

Today I was sitting on a bench in the mall, minding my own business, people-watching, after work.

Noteworthy indeed was the pile of water I came to notice at my feet.

Apparently my water bottle had been dripping for the entire 10 minutes that I had been sitting there.

It probably looks like I "wet" the bench.... if you catch my drift.

So, not only was my mood dampened (pardon the pun) because I didn't want to go into DAVIDsTEA (my favourite place on earth) after work (because I had stepped in a puddle on the way, ruining my shoes) looking like crap and smelling like bleach (I'm a hostess at a restaurant), but the mood had actually been brought to life, when I opened up my bag and my apron and shoes were found to be soaked through.... in lemon water.

How fun.

I really needed a cup of tea at that moment, but I figured it wasn't worth the embarrassment, being so wet and all.

None of This Would Have Happened If I Had Just Gone In With Wet Shoes And Bought A Cup of Tea {Before Sitting Down on the Bench to Mope About My Wet Shoes}.

Is it too superficial of me to say that I dislike going into my favourite places after work because I want to be able to make an impression, and because I don't want to buy anything without looking good?

Don't answer.

I probably am acting a little too superficial right now.

Looks like I'll be brewing my own tea tonight. Good thing I have a hearty supply of DAVIDsTEA products.

We are all Jobs and Davids crying out.

Selah.

Lyrics

Going on with you gone
Still upsets me.

What Hurts the Most - Rascal Flatts

-denotes everything I feel about you.

I feel like an eagle.
Soaring through cutting, cold air that stings.
Soaring through mountain crevices that are caving in.

Escaping freedom.
Trapped in isolation.

This is how I feel.
Lonely, cold.

Lately,

Everywhere I look,

People are turning a blind eye to the meaning of love.

Generations are jumping into a sea of selfishness, drowning in loneliness, depending on independence while living in total fragility.

Trust

God needs me to love Him... And let Him love me... Before anything.

Devine Answers.

I got an answer to a life problem, as written about in the previous blogpost.

It is an answer from the one I should have consulted right away.

See... I don't need to be dwelling on this so-felt sorrow by the loss of a so-assumed love... Because God has everything in control. He holds the universe. He holds the stars.
How could I doubt that he has my life in his hands.
How could I forget?

Renewing Thoughts:

Obviously God has someone for me.
Out there.
In this big, vast world I am awaiting to explore.
I need to let go, and let God guide.

Feeling pain is necessary in love. Its like what germs are to building up an immune system.

I have learned things over the past few years.
I've cracked bits of this shell.
I've hatched.
If opening my heart and getting it burned a little was necessary, then so be it.

God has a reason for everything, no matter how hard the circumstance may be. I am at that point that if I do not come to know the reason to this specific situation until after this life of mine has been lived, than its all for the better.

Gods love is more rich than any other I have been given.... I shouldn't be so quick to forget it.
It's hard to hold on, when the illusions of the real world superficially blind us.

At this point he just needs to me trust.

And boy, do I know it.

In everything I am being tested to trust a God I cannot physically see.

His romance is sweeter than any other I have known though.

The words.
The music.
The sky.
The sea.

That is the romance I will trust to be the waves beneath my ship.

Silence.

I thought I'd worked it out and gotten over you.

But see... I still can't seem to stop thinking about you.

And you probably don't even know I've liked you since forever a three years ago.

Now we barely talk.

And I should probably walk away.

But I don't know how.

I don't know how to shut someone out, who helped me open up my heart in the first place.

What Is Love?

I want to take all the Pain you feel
And free you from it

I want you to embrace the music of nature and the Sun
The way that I do

So that you do not feel the Pain

I would trade it with you
Just to see you smile

Because I love you,
And I am disgusted with the Pain that forcibly strops you
Blackening your tears