This year has been an adventure of emotions. I have seen little, and yet experienced a lot.
It was easy to get lost in a little world, and next year holds an even bigger world for me.
I'm nervous, but excited.
I think the best part is, I'm not fearful.
I've learned that the more one delves into self and one's own heart for experience, advice, and intuition, the more one can lose track of joy and journey. It's like looking at the path, afraid to fall, so much so that you don't realize you're about to walk right off a cliff. It took me a while to figure out that I was doing exactly that.... perhaps well over two years.... but I'm glad it's been configured the day 2013 ends. It ends the year on good terms, I suppose.
I've also learned that the more I learn about myself, who I am, and where I'm going in life, the more I realize I have so much more to learn.
There are many complexities within the complexities.

I don't like transitions between years. It feels like the world is moving much too fast for its own good.

Nonetheless, I suppose it must happen.

So here-goes.

I'm looking forward to the mountains I'll climb and the seas I'll taste.
I don't mind ocean water at all.
I don't mind rivers.
I don't mind clouds.
I don't mind sheep.

And it's clear as day, tonight in the wee hours of December 31st, that I can no longer drive my own life, in order to experience these adventures with true, pure happiness.

I've forgotten who's created me. I've forgotten that He knows me even when I do not know my own self.
I've forgotten that He is the heart I must rely on, not my own.

2014 is the year of the horse? I suppose chariots are to drive us into thickets and mountains and through rivers and sand dunes, by winds, heat, rain, sleet.

It's the year to GO.

I'm quite optimistic.
Cautious, but optimistic.

I'm ready.