Loving God Tonight

My plans keep changing and changing. If you have managed to keep up with it all, my original post-grad plans were for me to go to New Zealand via YWAM. I cancelled that trip in order to meet my great grandparents for the first time.... It was one of those once-in-a-lifetime situations....
So... That happened... And I got back thinking that I would work for a year. More opportunity showed up and I was able to apply to a university program. I got as far as the orientation before I realized it just wasn't what I wanted. I dropped out of the program, thankfully before tuition fees were processed, and am now standing somewhere in this foggy mist.

I can't really see ahead of me. Throughout all these changes, I have gone through quite an emotional journey.

But after flustering for about a day, trying to wrap my head around so many changes, I was reminded by several people close to my heart that God's got a plan. The world wants us to have everything planned out step by step because that is what is physically known to define us. However; we know that it is truly God and God alone who can define individuals. I have to trust that every step is going up to make way for something great and amazing. It's hard not being able to have a straight up answer... But I think it's better knowing that I have this faith to support me no matter what-- that there's a God who isn't going to let me fall.

I opened up my Bible tonight...

Matthew 16:24-28

God's got this. I can't mess with it... I can't change anything for the better. Only He can.

And I know deep down, this year off will turn out swell. I don't know if it will feel like it, but I know that in the grand scheme of things, it's all for my good.

God always has a way of making me feel so peaceful.

For now, I don't have set-in-stone plans. Only that, God-willing, I will see tomorrow and the next couple of years through with work, music, and then university.

Maybe I'll travel somewhere.

Who knows.

Only God. :)

#TrustingHim