I got an answer to a life problem, as written about in the previous blogpost.
It is an answer from the one I should have consulted right away.
See... I don't need to be dwelling on this so-felt sorrow by the loss of a so-assumed love... Because God has everything in control. He holds the universe. He holds the stars.
How could I doubt that he has my life in his hands.
How could I forget?
Renewing Thoughts:
Obviously God has someone for me.
Out there.
In this big, vast world I am awaiting to explore.
I need to let go, and let God guide.
Feeling pain is necessary in love. Its like what germs are to building up an immune system.
I have learned things over the past few years.
I've cracked bits of this shell.
I've hatched.
If opening my heart and getting it burned a little was necessary, then so be it.
God has a reason for everything, no matter how hard the circumstance may be. I am at that point that if I do not come to know the reason to this specific situation until after this life of mine has been lived, than its all for the better.
Gods love is more rich than any other I have been given.... I shouldn't be so quick to forget it.
It's hard to hold on, when the illusions of the real world superficially blind us.
At this point he just needs to me trust.
And boy, do I know it.
In everything I am being tested to trust a God I cannot physically see.
His romance is sweeter than any other I have known though.
The words.
The music.
The sky.
The sea.
That is the romance I will trust to be the waves beneath my ship.