I stopped writing in my diary a long time ago.... When I realized these things were much too deep and thought-evoking to even be put in words. Some things will be so well-remembered; no pens needed.

I've been writing so much music lately, pouring heart and soul into piano notes and vocal chords, instead of useless pages of a journal that will only end up making me feel bitter and vexed.

The post grad life so far has been quite the adventure. I am discovering day by day who I am and who I want to be. I also find myself reflecting a lot on who I used to be. How I miss that girl who used to be so peppy and optimistic.

I think I have changed because there is something that I have realized. Allow me to paint you a picture.

There is this world full of people. People who look so different on the outside, all from different cultural and religious backgrounds. We separate and cultivate with those who are like us. We forget that on the inside though, every one of us is the same.

It is like we literally are all on this same boat, going in the same direction... Into the universe where we know there is all this unknown beauty waiting to be discovered.

That is the picture.


I am making a list. A list of all the things that make me happy, because I know that happiness brings out the genuine best of all of us. It is good to be happy.

I look back and realize that my eyes were not open to the realities of this world before. In the past few months my views have changed. It's okay.

Please listen.

It is okay to change.

As long as you keep your values.

Hold tight to them for they truly do make you who you are.

In this world we are tempted to forget about what we first believed when such innocence is broken in order to apply new rules to the game in order to please the people we think rule this world.

Let me tell you something.

God created you to be exactly who you are, in His image, for a reason. He created this world, He needs you to be you, and He loves you for you.

In my opinion, the ultimate goal in life is to find the purest love out hearts can hold and let it blossom from within us the most beautiful flower. That love comes from God and it must be shared. Sharing this love makes us happy. Sharing this love makes God happy.

I know that it is difficult.

I know what it's like to forget how to believe. But in reading old church notes and collaborating all of them, there is a common thread; that when we draw closer to God and engage in being intimate with Him, we WILL feel relieved.

It is true.

Go read the Psalms, for example. That is my tip of the week for you. Proclaim the Psalms ! Rejoice ! SPEAK OUT ! Prayer is powerful, both when we praise as well as when we ask and seek.

I am going to do so. I need to.

I crave this raw, fresh, fragrant faith.

Also; listen to "Strong God" - Desperation Band :) it's cheery.

Love

There are days when I wonder why I am still single, to be honest. I daydream of having someone special in my life.

It is a delicate matter: the clockwork of our hearts.

Light as paper, heavy as rock.

The blood pumping through it is dependent upon good health.

Our mind must be in the right place...
Ready for when the right time comes.

I am trusting that there is a once upon a time ready to begin when the hour He has set will sound. The chimes will ring and the birds will dance and my heart will feel as though it can fly.